Monday, May 29, 2006

Overloaded

The last past few weeks have been a blur here at work. New people make for interesting times. Each new person brings with them their own stuff that then gets mixed with everybody else's stuff and this can cause such conflict.
New coping skills are cast aside and old ones embraced once again making life caustic between those we serve. We are going through a period of self harming behavior by those we serve and it is very difficult to deal with when the behavior is constant. I feel so inadequate and at a loss as to what to do. This self harming behavior affects the community of young ladies I serve on many levels. It also affects myself and those I work with and we each deal with the effects in different ways. It is at times overwhelming all the emotions that are surfacing within me as a result of dealing with the self harming behaviors of others.
I have become short, anxious and distant toward those I serve and those I work with. A result of the emotional upheaval resulting from dealing with self harming behaviors daily and over a long period of time.
If we are not constantly assessing ourselves both emotionally and physically we become overloaded and we no longer can help ourselves regulate our emotions never mind help those we serve regulate theirs.
Where do those who help go for help? Is it OK to feel the way we feel? Asking for help is a good thing, right. So why does it feel so bad?

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